Friday, July 11, 2008

sacramento

before you hit play
please go to bottom of pageto turn off music from my playlist. sorry! these are some shots i took from my latest trip back to the city of trees. enjoy!
 

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

boo hoo the perils of the unemployed.......

okay. so my arch enemy being unemployed...is not not having money
its not "the man" it is actually Billy FUCKIN Mays.

**dude isn't that such a gnarly picture! whoa man.
i always have trouble sleeping and i think unemployment intensifies it.
yesterday i even had quite an eventful day! I woke up butt crack early to
take an assessment test for Verizon Wireless. I think I did okay. Me and lucas then went to the historic Federal Hill to get bagels and found this amazing furniture boutique. He took me home. I chillaxed then we went back to the neighborhood when we got home to try for the first time Maryland steamed crabs. it was incredible. I cut my finger cause got DOWN on them crabs. it was delicious.
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We went back to light street and checked out American Apparel. picked up a racer back tank and vintage red striped tube socks. checked out doggie style and got Jerry a doggie toothbrush and an adorable polo shirt Photobucket
we have a friend that lives in federal hill and we were chatting about how lucky she is to live in such a great neighborhood and how fabulous her house is...and then we ran into her! anyways we ended up hookin up and got super drunk off of mimosas
got home...pooooooooped and drunk. and 3am i wake up nand couldnt go back to sleep cuz i woke up to fuckin BILLY MAYS screaming I CAN GIVE YOU AFFORDABLE INSURANCE!
***insurance? fuckin insurance?
not orange glo. not the face shaving thing. not the hercules hook or that damn magic putty. he is selling fuckin insurance! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and screamin about it.
yes yes i know tv rots your brain. especially billy mays!
on another note...tv is still very entertaining hahahaha
i am home right now watching the marathon of project runway season 1. makes me want to learn how to sew and make my own shit. i get in these weird moods when it comes to fashion. I want to create and i totally love clothes but at the same time it can be a circus. and models. fuckin models are just ridiculous to me. there was this one part on the very first show that the models were walking trying to show the designers how they look like and its like. are you serious? so Jay (season 1 winner) was like a breath of fresh air with his humor. Particularly when Jay was dressed like Jesus! i think we have the same humor. lol
ahhhhhhhhhhhh save me from myself!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

proof if you put your whole heart into anything...

This is proof that if you put your whole heart into anything that you do... you will be successful.
I never really liked "bleeding love" by leona lewis but this clip from so you think you can dance really got me teary eyed. matter of fact i get teary eyed every time i watch it. enjoy


So you think you can dance-bleeding love


on another note...i just got back from california. It was my third trip back since I have lived in maryland. I think Jerome's comment on the frequency of my trips has really allowed me to open up my eyes on
 my emotional state and how i have been dealing with my homesick-ness and how being away from my family is driving me crazy. but at the same time I need to realize that moving away, starting a new life and exploring what the world can really give you holds a lot of weight in the grand scheme of things. I need to remember how brave I really am. I think I just let fear get the best of me. in this week alone i have experienced 4th of July on the East coast. I think back west its just a show. fireworks, bbq...but being in the east coast and living only 5 minutes from where the Star Spangled Banner was written has really allowed me to fully enjoy the 4th and remember how great it is to be American. How all these things -- my culture, my passions, my beliefs, my life is only possible because i live in such a great country filled with possibility. today,I promise myself after being depressed for a month (traumatic past + having no work will do that to you) I will give 100 percent of my heart to whatever I feel is right. No more being scared. No more being guarded. I need to be myself again. yeah...kinda went off on a tangent there but it does tie into the video. like I said, putting all of your heart and all of your emotion into something will give you a happy and fulfilling life. will give you true success. hahah no more auto pilot. so here i come, Baltimore, full force! watch out now:)